kittykat0525

i'm sooooo fucking sick of people fucking lying to me!

matt you meany you made me sick now i have your cold... :-P   will someone make me soup and bring it to my house we don't have any and i'm hungry

well i am, i don't know what i was thinking last night... i let someone that i know get too close to me and now i'm confused and hurt.

god you're an ass. i confess to you how i feel and then you say you feel the same way. bull shit. you've been ignoring me and spending all you fucking time with richard's daughter, the one you said you'd never date again. what the fuck dexter?! i hope you just die all of a sudden so that way i'll be able to move on and find someone that will actually give a shit about the fact that i needed help with an issue and they'll do something about it.

FUCK

I just don't get it. it never fails i never let my guard down and i end up just pushing people away. then they get all mad at me and don't speak to me. I 'm grateful to those that have stuck through with me till now. i mean i;m really truely grateful. i guess that it never really hit me till now that i can actually trust people and not get hurt. i guess that i've just learned from past experience that if you let people into your life and trust them completely they will most likely use that to their advantage and try to take advantage of you.

Dexter, i've only known you for a couple of months and i feel like i can trust you with everything, you're like another older bro to me, i love you to death because of that. You told me yourself that you'd rather be a brother to me and that you'd never try to hurt me. well, you're hurting me now by saying that you wished that you hadn't met me because all you think about is me now... please just stay here with me and be here to protect me please. you just don't understand how much it means to me that i can trust you.

i don't get how this always happens. i'll start out as friends with someone and then they get attached and then when i tell them no i won't date them because i've ruined friendships that way then get all mad at me saying that they wish they had never met me. i understand this somewhat... i wish i hadn't met trevor when i was younger. i'll always feel something for him b.c he was my first love, but now i have another love and i don't want to lose him too. so please dex, you're a brother to me i don't like losing family or people that i think of as family, don't leave me here by myself without someone to look after me because of all of the stupid things that i do. i need someone to look after me dex, please stay here. please.

thanks....